Well I hate to admit this dark feeling, but I know I have to probably get it out there.
Well I’ve dated some very amazing woman in my day and then after we break up they all move on and find there ONE.
Now I’m i conduit for any relationship that I in counter, the one guy that all my past relationships see as a stepping stone to something better.
Well this could very well be, perhaps I’m not meant to find my self true happiness in my own life. Maybe I’m that one experience that all woman have that they learn from and find there own happiness.
I can honestly admit that there was 3 ex’s that I can think of that are all now married and I would believe there happy. And now a possible 4th on the way. It’s a very hurtful feeling knowing that I’m the problem, perhaps I push them all away, cheat on them, ignore them and the list goes on.
Maybe I’m the one that’s the problem, I’ve learned the past while now that I needed to make change, I needed to make an effort to become a better version of my self.
I had opened my eyes now, and for some it might be a disbelieve.
But I have opened my eyes and mind, this feeling of self doubt and self hate is overwhelming. But I’ve leaned to except it and better my self. It’s my new determination and dedication to better my self and seek my own happiness and such.
I believe that perhaps I’ve hurt the ones that I once loved in some way or another, and that’s for reason that to this day, I still don’t understand.
But I’m making all efforts to accomplish in my life for self love and happiness.
Perhaps this might have taken me many year and many heartbreaks to realize this, but it was the last relationship that truly made me open my eyes.
It made me realize that, that the relationships I was in was not the problem. I was the problem, how could I truly love some one if I keep hurting them. I believe know that I didn’t have self love In side of me. I felt like I was unworthy of any true happiness in my life. I’ve push away all the best I had in my life cause I felt like I was not good enough.
do i hate woman cause my mother cheated on my father, and I seen this for awhile ?
Well now that Im now learning my problem, this is now the time to fix it and better my self. I think this every now and again, do i hate woman cause my mother cheated on my father, and I seen this for awhile ?
Well what ever the truth behind the fact that I’m in this now position in my life, I’ve begun to realize it and started to make an amends with people and my self.
Winnipeg, Manitoba Born and Lived in Calgary, Alberta.
Now Living In Halifax, Nova Scotia.
A Journeyman Plumber and Avid Blogger And vlogger.
On A Journey of happiness and Self Worth and Self Love