Well it’s been awhile now and yes I’m still single, I think it’s the best for me at this time. As much as I think I want someone, I don’t really think I want someone. I need to focus on one or two important things in my life. That’s my health and my ability to love my self.
The reason I say “ love myself “
Is cause how can I love some one new in my life if I can’t truly love me and them!
I think of this now cause I’ve been single since January 27, 2017.
And as I write this, on November 7, 2017
It’s almost been a year maybe. But has it really been a year?
Me and the ex did part on that date, but we were trying to rekindle the relationship after February 14, 2017. Need less to say on
April 6, 2017. I really fucked up that date and nailed that coffin shut. That was the day where I , regret the most in my life.
So has it really been a year? Well yes and no.
Yes cause she made the decision to end it,
And no cause we were working thing out slowly and doing a reboot to our relationship.
But at the end of the day it was always me, it’s kinda really hard to admit my faults and such. But getting it all out there, kinda makes me feel whole and refreshed.
The kinda feeling a man gets after a long hard day at work, and all he wants to do is shower.
So as the days, weeks and months go by, I learn new and interesting things about my self. The kinda stuff where people ignore and don’t admit to there faults. But this is the first time in my life I’m making change for my self. Not for any one at all but me. I did make a promise to some one, but I no longer think that promise I made no longer matters.
So this promise is for me and me alone.